Returning from an adventure is always a mixed bag. Initially, I was energized. I felt a sense of purpose, belonging, and friendship that can only come from being on the road. Returning the van and dealing with the beating we gave it was a nightmare (more on that when the insurance company starts returning my calls), but somehow it was also fun. It kept me in tour mode. Overall, I can say that I gained a stronger sense of empowerment from spending a month problem-solving my way through physical challenges, group dynamics, and a low, low budget.
And then came the crash.
Down I went, into a dark place of disillusionment and disappointment. Not everything I had created on the road was going to last back at home, and I knew it. A few messy personal issues came back to haunt me and I watched my new-found sense of control blow away in a premature autumn breeze. On top of all of that, my apartment needed cleaning.
So what did I do you ask? How am I now? The short answer is: busy. Life picked itself up again, school started, and I settled back into the Toronto groove. I am comfortably occupied with projects and responsibilities. And now we’re taking the show to New York! Most days just thinking about those wheels-a-turning again is enough for me to enjoy what I’m doing here. After all, even though life at home is so full of that frightening R-word (I’m talkin ‘REALITY’ folks), it truly is what you make it.
And I intend to make it good.
Things To Be Grateful For #1: The incredible spiderweb in my backyard
Things To Be Grateful For #2: A shaky Toronto skyline
Things To Be Grateful For #3: Time to myself!
- Crew member Alex.